8:25 p.m. - 2007-08-03
Peace...another thing people take for granted.
I was going to wait until next week before the season premiere of "The Real World 19:Sydney," to update, but lately I have been holding so much in that I just can't do so anymore.
Pretty much, things in my life haven't been very well in the last few weeks. As mentioned before, I will be headed back to school in a few weeks and plan on using money from my final paycheck towards books. I also plan on getting a work study job to keep myself busy...oh yea, and I got a new credit card too. With all of the aforementioned, one would think that my life is FANTASTIC, right? Wrong. There is much more to the story...
Because of a series of chaotic events that I can't and just won't mention here, and because she's just sick of it all, my mother has FINALLY decided to move us away from father dearest. Tommorrow she's going to call a cousin of hers to see if we can stay at her downstairs apartment...if that doesn't work out, she plans on searching for apartments in the area on her own.
I am scared, and only because the man's a psycho-path and my mother has high blood pressure, and I don't want him yelling and screaming at her and making her condition worse when all she's trying to do is the right thing.
I don't want to be in Erie thinking and worrying about what he's doing to her and if she's okay. I just want to go to school and rest assure...but I can't do that.
I just can't believe that a man...a FATHER has the audacity to put his children and innocent wife through so much. What did we ever do to him? Nothing. Did I ask to be born? Absolutely not.
One good thing that may come of this though, is once we escape I will never have to look at his disgusting face again and can finally have some peace in my life.
...so I guess I will still leave my "Real World" entry for next week or so...I may as well update on other things like my car and money situation.
For now, I just need some space.
