10:28 p.m. - 2007-08-31
If tired of \"loner\" entries, then don't read this one
So...tonight.
Once again, this weekend I am left here in the apartment, all alone. Everyone has someone to see and somewhere to go...everyone except me.
I texted my friend, but she's babysitting her niece...and I didn't bother calling the ex-roomies because last time I tried that, they never returned my calls.
So here I was at a great dead end...so what do I do? I Listen to a little music,to try and get some inspiration...and I actually do. I think to myself "hmmmm...those football players across the hall were pretty nice to me before...AND they have access to alcohol, so why not just ask them for a drink? It's harmless, no sex or anything...just a drink, so that I can drink myself to sleep, atleast."
So I doll myself up for the occassion. Lather up my legs, re-dress, put on a smatter of make-up, and wait. I wait and I think again to myself "...but what if they're not there? They DO have a game tommorrow don't they? What if I disrupt them? What if I come off as desperate?" I lean my ear against the door and try to listen for music across the hall...nothing. "Are they asleep? Should I wake them up? Again, what if my knocking on their door annoys them?"
So then I do what's best. I remove my hair band and firmly place it on my desk. I un-doll myself up little by little...
...and now, I sit before my laptop typing up yet another "loner" entry for all to enjoy.
This is my life and I must get used to it...somehow.
