12:08 p.m. - 2007-09-12
I need to have some good, healthy sex
I think that I should just not go out with my roomate Chelsea anymore. It isn't because of her personally or anything, I'm just tired of my self-esteem being squashed on when i'm in her presence. See, she is an attractive young lady, and because of that, everytime I go anywhere with her, you have guys just gravitating towards her and ignoring me.
At the party the other night especially, like half the guys just wanted to talk to her and could give a damn whether or not I was in the room. I literally had to go up to them and say "hey, how come you're talking to her and not me?" to which they'd retort some lame ass excuse to make me feel better...trust me, I know the deal.
I also hate it when she comes home from class or lunch and tells me about some guy that felt the need to voluntarily sit next to her...no guy here ever wanted to voluntarily sit next to me.
I especially fear sometimes that a guy I may like, like Tony (the Italian stallion) for example, may see her and show more interest in her than me. Of course, they'd have sex with me, but they'd actually want a RELATIONSHIP with her.
And what's the worst of all is the fact that she has a frickin boyfriend who loves her! I don't have that! I should be the one having guys drool allover me and getting to pick which drooler I should date!
...i'm just tired of going somewhere with her and feeling like the ugly tagalong friend.
I am also upset because last night I almost died and told both Chelsea and my other roomate Elizabeth, and BOTH didn't give a damn! First, Elizabeth's all like "Oh really? *shrugs* well, last year, a car almost backed into me..." Ok, what the fuck does that have to do with me? And secondly, I WAS ALMOST RUN OVER BY A PICK-UP TRUCK!!!!! So, simply being backed into by some measely car, is different than actually being mowed down by some big old pick up, and having your guts wheeled over! But Chelsea's reaction was the worst of all. I told her about it, and sarcastically made a reference to her being able to get straight A's if I died...her response? "Oh really??? That's great! Oh my god!"...well gee, thank you so much for caring! It is amazing how these people literally don't give a fuck if I live or die.
...I really do need to have some healthy sex, don't I?
