10:35 a.m. - 2008-04-29
Trying to kiss the shy away
Last night I participated in a Fashion Show. It was a lot of fun and i'm glad that I was able to be brave enough to do it.
I am slowly but surely getting out of that "shy girl" phase. As a matter of fact, last night I didn't even panic at all about having to walk around a stage in front of people, I just walked up and did it. Of course, I was a little nervous, but I was otherwise comfortable with doing everything else.
I guess now I am finally learning to be comfortable in my own skin, which is pretty refreshing. Even at parties I actually talk to people now and don't just sit around nervously, waiting for people to approach me. Now, I can literally just walk up to a random person and introduce myself.
I also don't get nervous when I have to make class presentations anymore, and that used to be a big problem for me.
...I don't know what else to say about all this, except the fact that I really enjoy not being so timid and introverted. I have learned that I really shouldn't give a fuck about how people view me and if they think i'm weird. If I want to express myself a certain way, I go for it without even considering how other people view it. I even wrote a guess editorial for the paper on censorship, and although I knew that some people would object to the things I had to say, expressed my honest-to-God feelings, and if I were to receive hate mail, then Oh frickin well.
In conclusion, I enjoyed being in the Fashion Show (my red dress was kickass!!), enjoy introducing myself to random people, enjoy starting random conversations, and enjoy saying whatever the hell I want without caring what others think.
